Getting Back To It

For reasons I won't bore you with, I've not sat at the sewing machine since the beginning of the month when I whipped out that gift padfolio. Certainly no art quilting going on, until yesterday. To say there hasn't been a bit of quilt intimidation going on would be disingenuous, but there's been more than that - again, won't bore you. Just feeling some thankfulness that a fog lifted and I was actually eager to sit down with the shibori piece again.

I'd stopped after quilting the bottom section, pondering what sort of lines to add to the top and in what colors to make that section look like foliage. I'd hit upon the idea of contour stitching, and yesterday I was willing to give it a go. Because in the past I've gotten lost following along the natural patterning of some of my hand-dyed pieces, I took the time to really study what was going on in there and where the various divisions should be. I penciled the outline of each section as I went, the echoing lines not marked but stitched by eye. This made things much less overwhelming.

I soon discovered that I did not have to choose between the various threads I'd been auditioning, because each section called for its own slight variation (the colors in the above photo are the closest although still showing more blue than is in the blue/green section). Two different variegated greens, two different variegated red/yellows, a solid cinnamon and a final variegated incorporating the previous colors. So far so good.

Several people have said they do not see the trees and bushes that I do in that top section of hand-dyed, which is fine. That is what I feel my strength is, pulling out these images mostly with thread so that others can more easily see it. Can you see that far bank of foliage emerging now? Apologies for the very blurry picture. Probably not worthwhile to click on it for a closer look but do check out the larger versions of the others. 

Journaling

Last week was a bit of this and that, but not much particularly fiber related. So my apologies to those readers who may not be much interested in my play with paper and paint. I'll soon be back to fabric and thread. But this is the why of the art journaling: to learn some basic things about color and design that my play with fabric so far has not entirely taught me. Now it is true that I was introduced to the color wheel a long time ago. That bit of knowledge unlocked a key to a more logical way to sort my growing fabric stash. But actually MAKE a color wheel to hang in my studio? Bah! Who needs that? I can always pull one of many books on my shelves that already have one included. But here I am, lesson one in the art journaling book and I must make a color wheel with watercolor paints. It was quite frustrating blending the primary colors to come up with the rest, painted onto a coffee filter and allowed to bleed into the adjacent segments. Doubly frustrating when I adhered it to the first page painted with an acrylic "glaze" of blue which shadowed through the thin filter, altering most of the colors there. But at least I have the names written in so it will be a reference even if the colors are not very true.

As long as the paints were going to be out which inevitably leads to excess paint on brushes or palettes, I decided this was as good a time as any to restart my Positively Creative Art Journaling exercises. I completed 18 of them before dropping the weekly practice that was to take me through the year. I've been wanting to get back to it, so took this opportunity to at least prepare some page spreads. As luck would have it, both journaling lessons included pouncing through stencils so I used a bit of each kind in each journal. For the Positively Creative journal spread, I expended the sponge with the blue glaze over the page. The yellow was left over from a bit of stenciling on the color wheel journal page. I'd watered it down a bit too much so the shape of the commercial stencil openings didn't show through but I got marks anyway. To stencil on the above page, the instructions were to basically cut a paper snowflake like when you were a kid. Well, apparently I was a kid not that long ago because I knew I had some small snowflakes of construction paper hiding away in my supplies. I pounced white paint over them, then flipped them over onto the color wheel page to transfer that excess paint. I liked that a lot. I still wasn't crazy about this journal page though, so added a very thin layer of the blue to help blend it all together. The journaling prompt was about three things you would grab if your house was on fire. I realized after inking the prompt on and using some yellow, orange and red sharpies to draw flames along the bottom, those white areas of the snowflakes looked a bit like ashes - I'd unintentionally prepared a fiery background for my journaling.

 

Back to Creating Art at the Speed of Life - the next lesson is on the facing page, starting with the same acrylic glaze and then dividing the page up into random boxes using the water soluble graphite pencils. All the words were provided in a list which included what they mean. I have to admit, I'd never heard of Achromatic and had to double check the meaning of several others. These should all be second nature to me but they are not. Doodling was encouraged; in fact, there were to be more boxes than words so that there would be empty ones to doodle in. I fell back on my Zentangling for ideas, making this the favorite part of the exercise. Then the instructions said to use the water soluble colored pencils to color in next to the outline of the boxes, matching colors to words if possible. The picture above shows the completed page prior to water activation.

Learning more about these pencils, again being reminded that it is not as easy as it sounds once the wet brush comes out. The pigment really moved over the acrylic, sometimes disappearing altogether - I'm guessing up into the brush. So I took more to patting with the wet brush, then maybe moving it back and forth a little more in certain areas. I suppose some of the disappearing act may have been due to the lightness with which I applied some of the colors. Some areas blended nicely, others show a sharper edge to where the color stops. One thing for sure, as soon as they were dry, there was no more blending to be had.

I thought I was done only to go to the next page of instructions and see that the white gel pen needed to be found. The suggestion was to add highlights of the white, visually taking it back to the original page color, and adding interest. I was surprised at how much difference this made with just the first few dots of white I added, so I added more until they were in all parts of the page.

The other thing that got through my brain by doing is that these pencils are transparent colors and just as affected by the color of the page underneath as the watercolor paints on the coffee filter were. The color over those spirals around the word "warm" started out yellow, but once the pigment was activated, the blue underneath makes them look green.

The next spread in the Positively Creative journal started with the sponging of the blue glaze left from preparing the other journal's word page. The yellow was added by flipping the commercial stencil that had been used on the color wheel page, the paint left on it after the pouncing being transferred to the awaiting page. It was still pretty light, the original text on the page not very covered up, so I sponged on some violet mixed with white. I think it looks better in person than I could get it to read in a photo and I'm looking forward to journaling over it.

Actually, I have to say that my limited experimentation with art journaling usually leaves me frustrated and disappointed with the outcome of the underlying page, and sometimes of the final outcome as well. It is only with a little time and distance that I warm to my efforts. These pages of this week were no different, leaving me wondering why I keep coming back to this, why I keep hoping for a different outcome, what exactly is the point of spending my time this way. I think I knew the answer deep down but it was made clear in this passage from the January 2015 Smithsonian Magazine article about the American Indian practice of pictographic calendars - the recording of each year with just two of the most important events - one for summer and one for winter.

"One can imagine the unidentified artist setting his task. The questions he faces on the blank sheet of muslin are much deeper than what happened when. 'Who am I?' he asks, 'and who are my people? Where did we come from? What happened to us to make us who we are? What have been the markers of our being - joys and sorrow, losses and gains, triumphs and defeats? It is my will to show a part of our path from the time of origin to the present. It is in the power of my mind and my hand. It is appropriate that I should be the keeper of the story.' The artist's mission is no less than the identification of his tribe in time and space." - N. Scott Momaday

Is that not what we end up doing when we journal, be it in the written word only or with pictures and paint and color and textures only, or a combination of them all ? A brief leafing through the 5 months worth of Positively Creative Journaling tells me that it is indeed a worthwhile endeavor, these art journaling exercises; there are messages in there from last year that still resonate, are still important for me to remember, regardless of the quality of their packaging (although, as I said, time and space softens my criticism of that part). Some are more than just about me, may be a probing of "identification of my tribe in time and space" as well. I may keep most of the verbal expressions to myself but even so, I see the value of pursuing this form. 

Derwent Inktense Pencils

Ohhhh...this was TOO much fun! I spent a couple of hours getting familiar with Inktense water soluble colored pencils that I bought for the art journaling exercises, knowing that they could also be used on fabric. Unlike other water soluble pencils, these become permanent once dry. You can blend while they are wet, but once dry, the pigment stays put if you paint over it. But I get ahead of myself.

I started my experiment on watercolor paper, laying down a block of each color in my 12-color set. Some of the names were unusual and many did not look like one would expect. The magic happens when they are "activated", in this case with a wet brush. Suddenly the colors become quite bright and some change quite a bit. For my sample, I worked from left to right, pulling pigment to the right and under the drawn block with a wet brush, playing with changing the intensity. The final pull of paint went to the left over the previous diluted color to see how they would interact. I've not done much with watercolors, but my impression was, these really can be worked like watercolor paint.

Now on to fabric. I'd referenced an article in the August/September 2013 issue of Quilting Arts after seeing the demo on one of their tv episodes, having forgotten that textile medium was suggested for the wetting process. These instructions suggested wetting the fabric before adding the color, although trying it the other way around was encouraged. Water was suggested for an ink-like effect. Hmmm.  I did a quick google and found a fabric specific video demo on the Derwent website (there's also one for silk) - aha! Confirmation that this product is for use on textiles. And in this case, the pigment was laid down first, then activated and blended with water. I grabbed this small scrap of muslin and tried all different methods. The "flower" is done with the textile medium, which I liked the least. It does give more control in keeping the color where you want it, but I really struggled with blending and getting lighter values. I did the leaves by wetting that area first with water, then applying the pencil. I preferred this, but as with other methods using water, there was bleeding and wicking. As for getting lighter values and blending for a third color, I found I could rub the color onto parchment paper, then dip in a wet brush to blend and pick up the color to be painted onto the dry fabric. I tried one other method which I liked perhaps the best, which I will mention later.

With these brief trials out of the way, I started working with this linocut sample printing from last year. The squares around the outside of the oak leaf square were play areas while the leaf itself would  be practice in applying several colors to dry fabric, then wetting to blend. In this picture I laid down a very light layer of Baked Earth followed by shadings of Poppy Red and highlights of yellow. Not very exciting at this point.

But just add water...and the colors start coming out and blending.

I soon found you can overwork the blending by working with a brush that is too wet. I kept going back in, adding some darker areas with Bark, only to see them fade away. I should have been more patient and waited for the first go round to dry, or use a hair dryer to speed things up, I think. This picture is taken while still wet, and I swear the leaf was lighter when it dried (although I perceived no lightening of the green in the smaller squares). When I flipped it over, I could see where the paint had wicked out about an inch or more underneath the black paint of the stamping. That made me wonder if some of the pigment had actually migrated. You can definitely see the problem with too much water on those center circles.

 

As for my favorite method, I have to thank Margaret Cooter, who has been playing with water soluble graphite pencil, another supply I'll be learning to use in my art journaling. She steered me to this video showing not the typical laying down of graphite followed by a wet brush, but using the wet brush to pick up the graphite directly off the tip of the pencil. Surely this would work with colored pencil too? Yes it does! That is mostly what I used to paint in the green lines. I had more control adding and blending, much less problem with wicking.

I can see that this is not quite as easy as the demos would lead you to believe, that I need to work with this some more to master it, try the textile medium thinned out a bit as suggested. But oh, what an enjoyable couple of hours this was. How will I use it in my art quilts? Not sure, although with resists was the first thing that came to mind. I'll be keeping this latest tool in the back of my mind... 

What's In Store

A plan of sorts for the year has been emerging. I see 3 areas of focus I wish to concentrate on rather than thinking in terms of individual projects. I'm sure I will bounce back and forth between them, but the strongest one at the moment is the art journaling lessons. All the supplies have arrived and the journal itself is ready to be worked in. I'm partly doing this just for me, for my own enjoyment, but I also hope that some of the lessons learned and materials experimented with will transfer to my fiber art. I can so easily get absorbed in the learning, fascinated with the process and outcome, but then not know what to do with these new "tools in the toolbox." This time, I'm sensing there will be a more direct link between learning and applying.

The second focus comes out of conversations with Michele of Sweet Leaf Notebook. We both enjoyed the challenge we crafted last year, pushing each other to do a different technique on, for me a padfolio, and for her a journal. Our challenge is different from most in that we don't work on the same thing or start from the same place. There's no common theme or technique or piece of fabric that we have to use. No, we craft a personal challenge with the help of each other's observations, questions, encouragement, finding something that feels right at the moment, something we need a push on to get us working on the exploration. Michele thought I should think about thread sketching, perhaps using some of my urban sketches for inspiration. I had to admit, I'd been saving thread sketching articles for years and even tried it once in a journal quilt. The idea of using your sketchbook as inspiration for thread sketched fiber pieces popped up in a lot of places last year, coupled with the idea of coloring them in with paint or colored pencils. The more Michele nudged, the more I started seeing things on thread sketching everywhere I looked. It felt like the perfect storm that I should give in to. So I've taken on the challenge of experimenting with thread sketching which I hope will culminate in a piece that can be part of my ArtWalk exhibit.

And that brings me to my third focus, finishing three new pieces for ArtWalk 2015. I have two on their way - the shibori piece and the fountain wall piece. There's another very near completion that I put aside in 2012 that might be the best choice for number three. I have less than 3 months to have 3 pieces photo-shoot ready to submit with my application. So I must get to work, regardless of what the sirens say. 

I plan to keep my exhibiting to a minimum again this year, so have not thought much about the next art quilts beyond those I'm working on, though I know there are many ideas in the hopper. I'm just not thinking about them right now, although I must admit that my mound of silk ties is begging for my attention. I'll continue with my urban sketching and maybe do more sketching in general as I learn how to use some of the art journaling supplies. No doubt there will be more baskets, a bag or two, and maybe even a dye experiment that's been on my mind. And I must not forget that the nephew's birthday blocks come back to me this year to become a completed quilt for him. And then there's that lap quilt pinned and ready for quilting...

Good thing I've identified 3 main areas of focus! I've already experienced some "spin cycle" moments in the studio.  

Taking a Deep Breath...

...or two or three. Just how many deep breaths do I need to take to proceed into the unknown? Quite a few, it would seem, as I check and double check and ponder and research - same old same old for me. At some point, I realize I have to jump in - maybe holding my breath - by making one or two decisions and then I relax and can move forward. Case in point - what to do with the gessoed food boxes when there are so many choices. Well, how about just adding a coat of acrylic paint as step one? I don't have that many colors to choose from, but there I was, dithering anyway. I've probably used the Naphthol red the least, so why not? It reads a beautiful Chinese red to me and was quickly followed by yellow oxide lightened with some titanium white randomly sponged across the surface.

Yowza! I not only love the sponged effect but the yellow reads like gold metallic. My squiggles of paper still are not showing up but I can't say I care much at this point. Viewing this close-up I noticed some of the box graphics do show through even though I thought the red had covered them thoroughly - they are providing that subtle shading layers can give. Thinking to add a bit more in black, maybe just some text, but for the time being, I set it aside.

Food box # 2 is slightly smaller and is not designated for anything yet, so I felt totally at ease experimenting here. Right after publishing that gesso blog post, Joggles.com's mid-week muse video landed in my mailbox - what timing! What Lies Beneath starts out with techniques for gessoed surfaces. I'd seen this stencil demoed in a previous video and fell prey to it. Now was my chance to use it to try out this subtractive method. Basically it's just laying down a thick layer of paint, placing a stencil over it and removing paint through the stencil with baby wipes.

Of course, I hadn't added any color to my gesso as in the video but I thought perhaps some of the color from the box would show through. Only if you look very closely. The brush strokes are also very evident in the gesso now. I think if I do this again, I would lightly sand the gesso. Some of the paint sticks to the stencil when it is removed and I wished that it had done so more evenly. But that's just me. This one will get more layers too.

Forgotten decorative paper stash yields possible addition - and maybe some washi tape along the edges?

While taking my time with the food boxes, I've been considering how to attach my text blocks. I've gone my own way a bit, should be no surprise, in choosing this kind of cover for my Creating at the Speed of Life art journaling exercises, so the book's instructions might need some adjustment. It has you securing the individually sewn signatures together with tape and then wrapping sticky canvas over them for the cover. I could probably attach my cover in a similar way. I consulted other sources and ran across one that suggested sewing the signatures individually with the pamphlet stitch to make them easier to handle when attaching to the cover with the other way I was considering - the long stitch. That made sense to me as the watercolor paper readily available to me was a heavy 140 lb. The more I looked at my food box cover and what else I thought I might want to do to it, the more I thought it might be a bit too fragile to be handled over 30 lessons and that I didn't want to hold up the journaling process while I finished it. I knew I'd be fussing about getting paint on the cover or damaging it, and nearly abandoned the idea of using it for this. But if I sewed together individual signatures to work in and sewed them into the cover once all the lessons were complete - well, that seemed the perfect answer to all my questions and misgivings about my bulky little journal. Now there will be plenty of time to decide how else to embellish the cover.

And so with my mind settled on these little details, there was one more deep breath over hole placement and thread, then go! I sewed the signatures today and am ready to start the lessons anytime. I know, I know - I'm spending too much time getting set up, no doubt. But it's simply not in my nature to just dive into the unknown. I like lots of specific instruction and when they are lacking, I tend to freeze up until I get enough info to make me comfortable. I'm feeling much more comfortable now... 

 

What's Inside

Here is what got me moving on my recycled box book covers.

For reasons I can't explain, I decided to purchase a kindle version of Pam Carriker's Creating Art at the Speed of LIfe last April. From reviews and a "look inside" I determined it might have more detailed instructions of the art part of art journaling than what I was currently working through which seemed more focused on the journaling part. I think how reasonably priced the kindle version was became the deciding factor. Although I'd bought a mixed media sketchbook early in the year for more extended explorations, I noted that the first thing Pam guides you through is the making of a journal designed to accommodate the exercises in the book. Nice to have that info, I thought, but I really did expect to use that purchased journal. Of course, this was the same time as I was working hard on art quilts for ArtWalk and working through the Positively Creative art journaling exercises, so starting the lessons got put on the back burner. And being on my kindle essentially meant it was out of sight out of mind.

Additional deadlines came and went, summer lured me out of the studio and I became thoroughly entrenched in an epic fantasy trilogy book. Art journaling of all kinds never crossed my mind. By September, I was being drawn back to bookmaking with the urge and need to duplicate a handmade journal like I received in the exchange earlier in the year. With my interest renewed, I was hauling all those bookbinding and journaling books home from the library in late October, being reminded of the recycling of food boxes and setting the first ones aside in November without a clue as to how I'd use them.

Sheets of watercolor paper folded and ready for tearing

November was a funky month for me, full of days when I really didn't have much energy or feel up to par. I got a bug about the book on the kindle though, started reading through instructions and supply lists and now really interested in making my own journal per her instructions. Its finished size was smaller than I expected and a lightbulb went off. Could I use one of those boxes as the cover? Turned out that one of them was about the right size and I couldn't wait to buy some watercolor paper to make the signatures. I got as far as removing the sheets from the pad and making the first fold before the reality of the holidays set in. I can't remember if the gesso was bought before or after the paper, but the only reason I picked it up was to use on those food boxes that would become book covers.

Removing an extra inch by pulling along edge of metal ruler for deckle edge

So this project as been hiding out under my worktable, waiting for me to get back to it. With so many after Christmas sales and blowouts showing up in my mailbox, I decided this might be the perfect time to get out that supply list and see what I needed to buy. At least one thing on the list could be used on fabric, as previous research had informed me, and I could feel that fact pushing me towards a plan of exploration for my fiber art as well. More about all that later. Bottom line, it took a lot of months to get to this point, but slowly things came together and suddenly I felt ready and willing to get going. 

Another method of creating deckle edge with bone folder tearing along fold

And this is how I often end up where I do - taking one bit of an idea that starts to grow as more ideas present themselves, stringing themselves together until I suddenly know what I want to do. What will go inside at least one of the food box covers are these signatures for my art journaling play with Pam.

Weighting signatures

Gesso

Gesso gesso gesso. Since venturing away from traditional quilting and getting more and more drawn into using paint and art journaling, I'd become aware of gesso but not sure of its use to me. So whenever I see one of my fellow internet artists pull out the gesso, I've taken note. And then one day as I perused the limited art supply section of my local Wal-Mart (American readers, please don't hate me - the nearest real art store is miles away), there sat this bottle of gesso, daring me to take it home. It's unlike me to purchase something like this without a lot of research, so once home with the research beginning, I was relieved that I had bought the right thing.

Yesterday's studio time included getting this gesso out and seeing what it's all about. Several of the bookbinding books I'd gotten from the library last fall talked about recycling food boxes into book covers. These cracker boxes were on their way to the trash when I realized they were a good size for recycling this way. But I didn't want to leave them as is, per some of the instructions, but wanted to cover them over somehow as I'd seen Hilary of Living to work - Working to live blog do in this post. Well, actually nothing that fancy for this first run, but oh, are her handmade books and journals inspiring! I'd read that gesso could do a good beginning cover-up, a priming as it were, for more complete coverage with acrylic paint plus add some tooth to the somewhat slick surface of the box, so that's what I decided to do.

I wasn't sure whether to use a roller or foam brush to apply the gesso, deciding on a 2" foam brush which worked fine. I expected more coverage with one coat but the box graphics still showed through quite boldly (right side of bottom box). I added several more coats, perhaps unnecessarily, but I at the moment think I don't want that showing through whatever I decide to do next. And frankly, I'm not sure what I'm doing next - maybe some stamping or sponging?

Remember the squiggles of release paper I saved from the fused mast reflections of the Sailing the Wine-Dark Seas quilts? I wondered if I could imbed them in the wet gesso rather than using matte medium or glue at a later date. They did not stick well, but I eventually got them flattened into the gesso where I am crossing my fingers they will stay. For the record, I did not like these Nut-Thins so I'd really like to obliterate the image!

I'll talk more about what will go inside at least one of these covers in the next post. In the meantime, I would welcome any advice from my readers with more experience working with gesso and recycled boxes.

A New Year...And Still Playing Catch Up

Diane Phalen calendar

Although the first day of 2015 was last Thursday, the first working day of the year for most people was yesterday. And so with new calendars up and out in the studio, that rule #7 nagging at me ("The only rule is work"), I settled into a quick project to start the discipline of regular studio time. A padfolio was needed to go with the one already made that was, yes, meant as a Christmas present for a special person. Perhaps you know how it is with the special people in our lives that we like to give gifts to. They often get married and suddenly you can no longer send just one gift, but must include the spouse as well. That's my excuse for the box with a little something in it turning into a New Year's greeting.

When I realized the need for this second one over a month ago, I'd pinpointed these already printed designs as appropriate for the husband. Midway through last year, I'd run across half a dozen padfolio covers leftover from previous printing runs. I didn't need them all at the time and just never got back to them - out of sight, out of mind. I'm thinking it wouldn't hurt to keep going with them to have some ready for gifts or for sale. In the meantime, this would act as a warm-up of sorts. And a warm-up I apparently need. Oops - I got so focused on fusing to the Peltex that I forgot to do any "quilting" before fusing in the lining. I'm not sure what I would have done anyway with this pattern. And now to decide on thread for the satin stitch finish. There are always so many options, a decision left for today.

In the end, I chose plain black cotton thread, although I was this close to using a charcoal. This lining fabric did not print perfectly, a glitch toward the bottom that you can see between the dark grey pockets. I normally hesitate to use a really interesting design inside since so much of it will be covered up. Here it was a blessing. Would you believe that both the cover and the lining were generated with software filters of the same photo of icicles? Coincidentally, that photo was taken about this same time back in 2008. I shared the photo and some of the manipulations in this post, and printed ones made into padfolios here.

I experimented with a different way to attach an elastic cord for a closure, sewing the ends into a side seam satin stitching rather than on the flap as I did on the tree padfolios. It works but I'm not sure how much I like it. I think it would have looked better inserted into the stitching along the back cover edge, not the front cover edge.

Still, I think it looks quite nice and I think the spouse will like it (as I like him). I look forward to making up the other icicle manipulation that is printed out, remembering to quilt it this time, and picking out a different sort of lining and thread. It's always nice to have one more thing out of the closet and ready for use.

After the snow subsided yesterday

Speaking of icicles, or at least icicle weather, we've had more snow - about 14 inches over 36 hours. This is not me, but a neighbor across the street. She and her husband take turns at the snow-blower, and after  previous lighter snowfalls, have cleared my driveway as well, to my surprise. But as you can see, they have their hands full taking care of their own, and I have nearly cleared my driveway by working at it a bit at a time over three days. I have to admit it is good exercise shoveling snow. I just hope it doesn't become a daily task!

Time to Ponder

Post Christmas snow - view from my back deck

The end of a year, the beginning of the next...the holidays bracketing these gives many souls time to reflect. In northern climes, the weather often helps encourage this pause to ponder, if not on events and accomplishments of the past year, then on what the coming year might bring. Did we do a good job, are we happy with how we spent our time? Can we do better, do we feel a change is in order?

Neighbor kids without a care in the world

Frankly, I'm not feeling too philosophical, in spite of a post-Christmas snowfall that has me happily hunkering down and feeling at last like it is truly the end of the year. Unlike many artists, I'm not listing what I finished or what goals I met. I've felt it has been a fairly unproductive year in all aspects of my life compared to most, yet when composing the annual Christmas letter, that unproductive year sounded pretty full as I remembered the many things I did explore, enjoy and accomplish. It was just a different year with different explorations than I normally allow myself. That's really all I needed to know.

I am pondering some things though, as I look toward the new year. My art group has had several discussions about what comprises good design and how to spot it in artwork. And then, how can you critique your own work when in the midst of creating and once the work is done? Once that discussion began, I kept running across things on the internet addressing just these issues, like this blog post on The Art of Critique by Elizabeth Barton which has some interesting things to say about judging abstract art. Some articles and discussions I find helpful, some I'm not sure I totally agree with, but it has made me stop and think about my process and my biases, my weaknesses and strengths, and why I'm doing this anyway, what I want to accomplish, what direction I want to take.

One such prodder came in a recent Robert Genn e-letter addressing the subject of style which you can read in full here. The part that particularly spoke to me was this:

"I was conscious from the beginning of wanting to make something that was different from the work of others. I wanted to be my own man. I've always noticed perfectly competent work that loses our interest because it is so frightfully "standard." I didn't want to be standard. I made up my mind to produce work that was unique, even at the expense of academic norms. I was consciously looking for deviation."

Snow-covered tamaracks

I'm not really focused on producing work that is unique, in fact have grown to dislike the use of that term, where "distinctive" is really closer to the mark. But I have been very aware of my mindset of the last year or so of finding a different presentation to the ideas and designs floating in my head. There are few truly new subjects to interpret, and in my mind, nothing wrong with using the ones we are so familiar with. The trick is to present those subjects in a new or newer way, a distinctive way, an interesting way. To be perfectly competent but not standard. I think this is what led me to explore non-quilting endeavors, to see if I could shake something loose and find my own distinctive way of presenting designs that often start out pretty standard. I'm thinking that when I find myself stuck in the midst of creating or disappointed with a finished piece, this is what's going on - I'm trying to reach beyond the ordinary, and that's not always easy. I'm looking for that thing that draws the viewers in and keeps them interested.

So I think I am figuring things out, then stumble across this list of "rules" which I can see I need to consider. So much of this is about attitude and apparently, I could use an attitude shift. Number 8 is the only one that really threw me since I would have thought the two go hand in hand. But that may be my problem - I'm so analytical that I don't know when to turn it off. When the right brain is allowed to take over, the work almost always flows effortlessly. You can read more about the creation of this set of rules here.

Have I given you some things to ponder or have you already worked it all out for yourself? I think the bottom line for me is Rule #7 - I've got to get back to putting in the work, and no matter what 2015 brings my way, I need to be fearless about it. I've had a little sticky note in my studio for about 6 years that says, "Lose the fear!" - having realized that it was indeed fear that was holding me back in my creative life. It's been only a few years ago that I realized I was letting fear rule the rest of my life as well. I've managed to lose the creative fear for stretches, only to find I've let it back in again. I've learned how to control the rest of my fear, although there are also lapses there - I'm only human. So as I hinted in a previous post, the resolution word for 2015 will be "fearless" for my life as a whole. I'm counting on fearless to move me forward when I start to falter. Perhaps it will lead me to great things, or at the very least, open up my world.